Troubling Nights

Don't you just hate it when you try to go to sleep at night and instead of doing so, find yourself wide awake and staring into the darkness as you hear the alarm clock beside you ticking away?

Well, it's not my cup of tea either. What more with the fact that I do need at least 9 hours of sleep a day to be able to be fully focused and pumped up for the next day's activities, being unable to sleep at night is not a fun thing at all.

I have been having trouble sleeping for the past three nights.

The earliest I've been able to sleep at was 1a.m. And the latest? 3.30a.m.

Guess the main reason as to why I'm having trouble sleeping is that my mind isn't as exhausted as I thought it would be. I lay awake every night thinking about a lot of unwanted thoughts. You know how when you sometimes space out, your brain starts moving as if you're watching a film,
a film of your memory that all happened in the past? Yeah, mine has been working something like that for the past three days. And what's being replayed isn't the best of memories either.

Every time I think of something, I start asking myself: 'What would have happened if I did...... instead? But blah! It all happened in the past, it's not like I can turn back time and go try it out right?' So after stopping myself from thinking any further I'll automatically stop at that memory, and then my brain will automatically show me another one instead. =.=

Haih, maybe it's just me.

Well, I think I've emo-ed/ranted enough for now. You know how cranky I can get when I don't get enough sleep.

Sleep, sleep, sleep... Why do you ELUDE me???!!!



Sleeping kitten taken by orb28 on Flickr