Round-Ball-Ball

Today is the day we make Round-ball-balls...

Today is the day we eat Round-ball-balls...

Pink Round-ball-balls,

Green Round-ball-balls,

White Round-ball-balls,

Round-ball-balls filled with red bean/sesame filling...

Today is Round-Ball-Ball day!

Whee! Round-ball-balls... Aren't they pretty?

Didn't stay back for to do OT today just to help mum finish "Chai"-ing the flour. My pathetic attempt at creating different shapes with the glutinous rice flour ended up with dismal results...

As you can see from the picture, I attempted a:

(sorry about the wordings... >.<)

1. Triangle

2. Heart which is very cacat.

3. Star, which looks like Patrick to me, sans the eyes, mouth, pants and colour XD

4. Square, or rather a cube.

5. The one with the green lettering says: Supposed to look like DUNG =.= FAIL!!!

Round-ball-balls ready to go into the pot...

Round-ball-balls boiling... poor Round-ball-balls...

Round-ball-balls ready to be eaten at last! Can you spot Patrick? XD

Yong-yong with Round-ball-balls is a happy Yong :D

Aaaaaaum! Yum-yum ;) [Heh.. I know... what a camwhore XD]

The chef enjoying her own work~

Thanks, mum for the Round-ball-balls!

Happy Winter Solstice, everyone!

Sandy-kitty!

Today, I saw Sandy-kitty again...

If you're a frequent reader of my blog, you'd probably remember Sandy-kitty from my last post.

Aww... what a cute Sandy-kitty picture, eh?

However, unfortunately, I didn't have the privilege to of having Sandy-kitty smile at me like that.

Instead, it was more of a....

Looks more like a "Get-out-of-my-face-you-useless-human" look to me.

And that was exactly what I got from Sandy-kitty.

Well, I guess you can't blame Sandy-kitty, after witnessing the last incident in my garden, I think I'd probably have the same face if I was in its paws.

Meow~

Random Emo-ness

37 days...

At times I just feel so afraid I don't know what to do anymore...

Needy much... lol

*sigh*

To: Old Man :p

Happy 21st dear! :)

I love you! :3

It's Snowing!

Well, in Yong's world anyway.

Heheheh...

Exams are over, and I'm finally starting to feel the Christmas spirit. :D

It's back to work in the audit grinder though...

Gah, I can already see the files for amendments piled up on my desk awaiting my return T____T

Ah well..

Tsk

How is it possible to get "upsetter" AND "upsetter"?

Lol

*Rant rant rant*

***

Slap, slap, slap~ Clap, clap, clap~

Zern... this I blame you =.=

*Yawn*

One week study leave and I seem to be catching up more on sleep than my much needed studying... =.=

*Sigh*

On another note:

It's so hard to please...

Especially if you don't have the $$$

XD

One down, one to go

OBU-BU bye bye! XD

Like, finally.

(I hope)

Meow

Mum doesn't like cats. Neither does my Grandma, nor my dad I think.

It's not like they're evil, evil people who don't love animals or anything, but I just guess they just don't really have any soft spots for cats. Dad had a FEW dogs, so did my Grandma... eh wait I think she had a cat too back at Hotsprings... But meh, I'm straying.

Anyway, my point is: Mum doesn't like cats.

Guess I can't expect her to when the cats who turn up at our doorstep are usually there to:

1. Steal fish from the dining table.

2. Rummage through our rubbish for food.

3. Have kittens.

4. Poop all over the garden.

Back to my story...

Quite a funny thing happened today.

Was on the way back from work, mum and I in the car. And just as we were about to turn in upon reaching the house, we saw two cats right at our garden. One was a sandy coloured kitty, looking like it was up to something and about to go under the fence to get into my garden; another was a whitish-grey kitty, half sitting, half squatting in my garden.

Well, mum being mum and not liking cats, was obviously furious at seeing whitish kitty in our garden. So, mum being mum, honked the car horn loudly, just so she could scare whitish kitty away. However, whitish kitty did not move and just stared back at her. Sandy kitty however, backed up a step and decided to reconsider its intentions of getting under the fence into the garden.

Upon seeing whitish kitty not moving, mum got even angrier. As I opened the gate for her to drive the car in, she decided that whitish kitty was looking for trouble and decided to get out of the car just to shoo it away. Whitish kitty, upon seeing mum approach, still did not move. Sandy kitty however, was smart enough to take a few more steps back.

By now you must thinking, "Wow, that whitish kitty is one-heck of a brave cat!"

Well, hate to burst your bubble, but I don't think that's true.

Why?

Well, because...

Whitish kitty was in the middle of "No. 2". XD

I mean come on, who would, or maybe the better term would be, "Who could?", move/run away when you're in the middle of "No.2".

Unless there was a nuclear missile coming right at you, I don't think you'd actually urm... move, if you had "No.2" hanging halfway out your @$$. :D

So there you go, whitish kitty did not deem mum a threat big enough to move away whilst in the middle of "No.2". But, as soon as "No.2" was done, it ran out the garden quicker than you could say...

"Poop"

XD

Poor whitish kitty though, imagine the thoughts going through its poor kitty mind upon seeing the threat of mum coming at it.

"Oh no! She's gonna get me!!! Should I run? Yes I should... but how!? I'm... not... done... T___T"

Or something to that effect... Lol...

And all the while, sandy kitty seemed like it was enjoying the entertainment from a safe distance outside the garden.

Wonder if whitish kitty would be daring enough to step paw into our garden again. If it doesn't, I think it will probably be because its too embarrassed by this episode to, rather than because of the threat of "mum".

Cute poop~

*Reminds me of Charlotte's calculator...*

**Edit: Oh almost forgot, please forgive my horrible art skills.

PMS

Sometimes I just feel so disconnected from the world...

Zzzzz...

Muscles aching all over... As much as I had fun being evaluated and evaluating on Saturday, I am now feeling the effects of all the exertion.

老了哦！>.<

Of wrappers and ribbons

It's funny how memories can get triggered so easily just at a sight of a simple item...

For me, it was a piece of wrapping paper which I would've thrown away given any other occasion...

And I'm still wondering as to the reason why I did not dispose of it way back then.

I guess back then, there were just too many things - feelings, emotions and thoughts - contained in it that prevented me from doing so.

Now, it's going to be given away so I'll never see it again.

In a way, I'm glad I never will.

There are things just not worth holding on to sometimes...

Ah, but the ribbon that came with it I will keep.

It's too pwetty XD

Yes!

Today...

Brought me one step closer to being an adult. :D

I'd say there are two more things that would complete it for me...

No. 1 is pretty much doable. Just have to find the time and the company.

As for no. 2... Well... Hahah...

:)

Guess I won't be going near adulthood anytime soon though my age may denote otherwise.

Ah well... Am certainly in no hurry at all that's for sure ;)

My Saturday

Weddings tend to give me this "feel-good, warm, fuzzy" feeling at the end of it.

Just attended one yesterday morning.

It was a simple but yet really sweet ceremony.

To see two people so attached to each other and joined together in love like that, is really, something that warms the heart. And I guess, in part, it also reminds me why life is worth living despite all the horrible things you may face in it sometimes.

Loves conquers all, doesn't it?

Lol... Corny though it may sound.

And no surprise here, but it took a wedding to remind me what it takes to really love a person.

I hope I don't ever forget that again.

I need to attend more weddings. Eh, who's gonna be next? XD

***

My congratulations to Daryl and Lisa :)

May you have a happy journey in life together and God's blessings always!

Just a random post

Oh how I wish I could go just 4 months back, 4 months back to the time where I was just enjoying myself and didn't have to worry about exams, about studying, about finishing my thesis in time, about work, about deadlines, about not getting enough sleep, about being apart from someone I love so much...

Wishful, wishful thinking... Lol...

Life's been pretty much like that for me in case you've been wondering.

And I think I've been riding on a wave of emotions lately. Wonder when I'm gonna land on safe ground... Heh...

One wrong decision this morning cost me real bad...

What? Expecting some awesome, dramatic story on it?

Nah... it's nothing too bad.

My feet just hurt real bad that's all.

Moral of this:

Always make sure your shoes won't kill you. XD

On a lighter note~

Went out for my first audit today. Can't say it was super fun, actually its pretty much the same things I do in the office. But then again, hearing myself being addressed and called as an "auditor" by the clients today, made me feel... somewhat... contented.

Haha!

Well, this update has been long overdue. But meh, nobody bothers anymore... So it doesn't really matter, right? :D

Gobble gobble

Going cold turkey.

I need my daily "Friends" fix.

暗恋

The radio beside me in the office is on for the whole 8 hours I'm there...

And gosh, Mandarin/Cantonese advertisements are just so weird sometimes =.=

Songs get replayed at least 3 times throughout the day... I think I might go mad, if not for this song:

An Lian - Tao zhe

陶喆 - 暗恋

Still lonely still lonely

昨晚又再见到你 你还是那么美丽
我紧张到话都不会说
就傻傻看着你

渴望永远这距离
就是和你在一起
醒来发现这一切都
只是我的梦境

告诉自己要冷静
却又无法不想你
我的懦弱已经开始让我讨厌我自己
是你对我有戒心
还是我没有自信
可是谁也不能阻止我
我要暗恋你

So lonely

Chorus:
So here I am standing all alone
在某个街头
有个我在这里只为你等候
Here I am waiting just for you
开放我所有
希望你能了解你能够接受

So lonely

今晚渴望再见你
虽然只是在梦里
短暂的甜蜜也胜过了一辈子没有你
就算没快乐结局 就算从此死了心
我要付出我所有诚意 只要能感动你

我愿意

So here I am standing all alone
在某个街头
有个我在这里只为你等候
Here I am waiting just for you
开放我所有
我要为你怎么做你才接受我

我喜欢你 我要你 我爱你

So here I am standing all alone
在某个街头
有个我在这里只为你等候
Here I am waiting just for you
开放我所有
希望你能了解你能够接受

故事就说到这里 就算你们再好奇
我想说的都已说完了 其余是秘密
在那某一个街头 会流传某个旋律
那是我在轻轻唱著歌
我多爱你

***

So emo I know... but me like XD

Jazzzzzzzzzz

Thanks to Pedal Works, I is hooked onto dinner jazz~

Can even stone the whole day and just enjoy listening to it... Call me a bore.. Lol

Dinner Jazz

Makes me wanna start slow dancing around XD

A 'Romantic' Bike Ride

Ahhh... A romantic bike ride...

I'm sure almost every girl would've thought of doing something like this at least once in her lifetime.

And we have all the TV dramas and movies to thank for putting this picture into the female mind as well. Lol

If you were wondering.......

I got my "romantic" bike-ride today. :D

It was awesome to feel the wind in my face, enjoy the feeling of not having to put any effort into going to where I wanted to, and enjoy having someone who was so kind to give me a lift.

But just so you know...

No, it wasn't my significant other giving me the ride.

In fact, it was my darling little brother who did it.

It wasn't romantic at all actually, I had to cling on to his backpack (good thing it wasn't sweaty) and worry about the potholes he might have possibly run over because we were cycling in the dark. And mind you, bumpy roads and back seats without cushions don't really go well together.

But all in all, I'm just glad he was kind enough to come get me. Saved me the trouble of a 15 minute walk home in the dark, alone.

So dear little brother of mine, if you do see this post, well, thank you. :)

Your dearest big sister loves you, no matter how much she may bully you sometimes. XD

Picture taken from http://www.templates.com/preview/illustrations/il-993.html

*Shy*

Because after more than 1 year, I still blush and gush after seeing him and parting.

My colleagues have pointed out I glow but I don't think they know the reason why.

Hahah!

I miss you >.<

So Pwetty!!!

Ahhhhhhh.... I want!!!

It would make me so happy :3

Lol...

Anybody got USD$ 6k to spare? XD

Photo: Limited Edition Hello Kitty 5-piece exclusive Swarovski pendant set

Ten ten ten...

October is here...

Nuuuuuuuuuuu >____<

Time flies the most when you don't want it to.

*Sigh*

The only good thing is...

I'm looking forward to pay day.

And all those promised Hari Raya open-houses XD

Haha!

New-found 'Obsession'

Obsessions. Everybody has them some time or other.

Some major ones, some minor ones.

But then again, I wouldn't really call this an obsession actually.

I'm sure throughout your life, you've at least collected (or tried to collect) one thing or another.

I for one, definitely have. Although, I must say, I'm not really much of a good collector.

Let's see, I've TRIED collecting lots of things over the years.

I've done stamps.. (I have a few stamp books, don't know where they've gone now though)

I've done stickers.. (I still have my sticker books... and gosh was I really crazy about it once)

I've done books.. and I still do... (I'm a bookworm, I yearn to own a library one day)

I've done toys and soft toys.. (Remember the world Snoopy collection and Hello Kitty, courtesy of McDonald's a long, long time ago? Sadly I didn't manage to complete my collection)

I've done Mentos boxes (Don't ask why, don't ask how, don't ask =.=)

I still kinda have an intention to collect sand from beaches I've visited and also fridge magnets... but so far, I only have a bottle of sand and fridge magnet from Redang.

So well, I was never successful in collecting stuff anyway.

But this time, this time it's going to be different.

"Why?" You may ask.

Well, it's because I fell in love.

:3

Ah yes, I fell in love......

With the new Coke Contour Glasses from McDonald's! XD

And this time... I'm determined to get all 7 of them!!!

My home needs some nice new glasses anyway... :p

Although like my dad pointed out, I don't know where to place and display them nicely. My kitchen is so full of stuff already. =.=

But meh, I don't care, shall only think about that problem later XD

2 down and 5 to go for me~

Oh, and just as a side note:

I'm pink!

Hahaha!

If you're bored enough to read my blog, then here's to wasting more time taking another irrelevant personality quiz.

Cheers everyone~

I'm so gonna get fat with all the large McValue Meals =.=

Abandoned!

Because I'm just too lazy to update~

Zzzzzzzzz........

Tick-tock

Time is running out...

>.<

HOYA!

Thank you for one full year of be-awesome memories! ;)

Nothing more I can do to express how much each and every single day and moment spent with you meant to me. :)

Gosh... this is soooo mushy XD

I love you!

21

Special day is over... so special no more.

Lol.

Thanks all for the warm wishes through calls, SMSes, and the ever easy FB.

I'm old. And I'm legal.

Should start off being legal by walking into the 4D shop and buying a number.

Think I'll be lucky enough to strike the jackpot anytime soon? XD

Up!

Been a long, long time since I've written a non-emo post... XD

Watched "Up" today in Mid-Valley. (And skipped Sunday School duty :p)

Thanks so much to Crissy who asked me along after winning free tickets to the screening. Besides watching it for free, it was an extra bonus for us getting to watch it in 3D. I simply have no idea how their 2D film reel could have problems, but hey, I'm not complaining. XD

Up - Another awesome story produced by Pixar. It's funny how Pixar seems to be the only animation studio capable of coming up with heart-warming and meaningful stories, besides all the extra laughs, comedy, and fascinating ideas and imagination put into it as well. We've had Wall-E last year, and goodness, I so cannot wait for Toy Story 3 to be released next year as well!

The movie certainly made my day. Not to say making me tear at certain scenes as well. Haha

It's definitely a movie you don't wanna miss. However, it's pretty much the same watching it in 2D or 3D. The effects aren't all to shout for.

Making a house fly by just attaching hundreds of helium filled balloons might sound a tad bit illogical and impossible, but hey, why set such limits for our imagination? Besides, wouldn't you love to see something like that happen in real life? I certainly would. :D

Life is filled with adventures. And sometimes, the ones that may seem so boring to some might actually be the most important and memorable of all. :)

Let Loose

I'm filled with anxiety.

Brain feels like it's gonna explode.

No thanks to OBU. =.=

So I decided to let loose.

A little shopping and...

The smell of new clothes~

*Relaxes*

At least I'm happy,

for a while...

Monday will be DOOM'S DAY >.<

Dizzy @.@

Sing to the tune of Dory's "Just Keep Swimming"

Just keep spinning, spinning, spinning~

The world has been spinning since the second I opened my eyes this morning.

I'm not functioning. >.<

Can't afford to fall sick now......

I'm sorry for the stupid things I do.

Emo

I won't be strong enough to take 3 failures at one go.

God help me, I need all the support and strength to keep me standing.

Short Update

I've been losing track of dates recently, and I very much blame it on the fact that I'm sitting at home, jobless, and supposedly enjoying my holidays.

Time flies. >.<

If you're curious as to what I've been up to recently, well, apart from staying home and burning my eyes dry on the computer screen, I haven't really been doing much. So I'm glad to tell you that I recently got a part-time job. Selling shoes.

I cry on the inside having to look at all the pretty shoes the whole day long without being able to buy any of them... YET.

Girls, if you're looking to do some shopping. Do drop by Pedal Works, Subang Parade (It's right opposite Uncle Lim's, next to Shins). There's a sale going on and goodness, if your shoe sizes aren't the common 5-7, you'll definitely be in for a very nice surprise. All those pretty, pretty shoes... T_T

Don't forget to tell the staff on duty I recommended you. :p

I want my July back...

GIMME BACK MY JULY!!!!!!!!!!!!!

*Sigh*

You don't tell me things...

Or am I just expecting too much?

Whaaa...?

Charcoal toast.

**

Star, I wanna be a star.

**

Shoes, dresses and that pretty necklace.

**

Time flies.

**

Wish I were back there again...

Broccoli XD

A little snippet of my hectic day in which I found amusing~

***

Comes home from latest job interview feeling tired.

Flops down onto bed and sleeps.

Dreams.

Suddenly in the middle of my dream...

*Heavy drums, electric guitar... IKENAI TAIYOU~*

Snaps awake from dream, registering the thought that my phone is ringing...

Looks at phone, unregistered number, wonders: Who's this?

Me: *groggy* "Hello?"

Anoy: "Hello? Is this Ms. Tan Wan Yong?"

Me: "Yes, it is..."

Anoy: "Hello? Hello? Ms. Tan Wan Yong???"

Me: *wondering who's calling... can it be another interview call or something?* "Yes, speaking."

Anoy: "Hello Ms. Tan. I'm calling from XXX college and I'd like to invite you to attend a talk on XXX and XXX tomorrow at our campus. Would you be interested to come tomorrow?"

Me: "Tomorrow? I can't actually, I'm kinda busy."

Anoy: "Oh okay, would you be interested if I continued to update you about XXX subjects the college is offering?"

Me: *thinking: You're in for some bad news lady XD* "Uh... not really. Actually I've already finished my course."

Anoy: *shocked voice* "Huh? Finished your course? As in completed all the papers and finished your exams?"

Me: "Yes, yes..."

Anoy: *disappointed voice* "Oh... okay then, thank you very much Ms. Tan."

Me: "No problem."

Puts down phone wondering what time it is.

Looks at clock.

What the heck!? 6.50p.m.!? Oh nuuuuuuuuu I overslept!!!

Tries to put on glasses in a hurry and still feeling groggy.

Sticks end of glasses into left eye.

Ouch... That's not the right way to put it on... >.<

Washes face and runs downstairs to cook.

Yells for brother to come down to help.

At about 7.20 p.m.

Brother and I stand in front of the table.

Staring at a dish of broccoli, wondering how to season it.

*Pours soy sauce*

Me: *holds bottle of oyster sauce* Eh... put how much ar?

Bro: *looks at me with the I-dunno-face* "... I don't know?"

Me: "Aren't you the master chef?"

Bro: "No... since when?"

Me: "Okay...."

Shakes bottle.

Once.

Twice.

Thrice.

Four times.

Me: "There.. enough kua?"

Bro: *Stares at broccoli like its infested* "I think so..."

Me: "Try and see?"

Bro: *gives me the are-you-serious-you-want-me-to-try-face?* "..."

Bro picks up spoon.

Slowly spoons up a broccoli (rather unwillingly)

Puts one broccoli into his mouth.

Chews.

Me: "So...? How is it?"

Bro: "Uhhh....... it's weird..... Sweet but salty at the same time... Err...I've never tasted anything like this leh... Hahahahah!"

Me: "Heh? I think its screwed... How?"

Bro: "Uhh... Put more sugar? Wait... that's not right... Hahahahah!"

Me: "..."

Broccoli dish - Total failure today.

I blame it on my lack of recent cooking.

XD

Memorabilia

Things that remind you of the people you love…
How long can we actually keep them?
How long can they actually last?

SMS-es, letters, cards…

Daddy’s sarong, Mum’s precious hand mirror;
Birthday gifts from friends, souvenirs from their travels;

That first soft toy from your first love;
That necklace your boyfriend put on your neck…

Your engagement ring, your wedding presents…

Your son’s first blanket, his first pair of shoes;
Your daughter’s first drawing that you put up on the fridge…

Your wife’s facial products that take up more than half the dressing table space;
Your husband’s raggy T-shirt, the one which you hate so much but yet can’t bear to get rid of because it reminds you so much of him when he’s not around…

***
As for the people we love…
How much of them do we retain by keeping things like these when they’re already gone?
How much can they actually help us remember them by?

And what will happen to these things when we ourselves have gone as well?
Will they be given away? Donated? Thrown out as trash?

Sometimes I wonder…
What are the things people remember me by?
Sachets of green tea? My butterfly earrings? All those Christmas gifts I’ve given out?

And when I’m gone, will people still remember me at the sight of those items?
Or would they just pass on in life without a second glance, just like how I do sometimes?

Wazzap?

Haven't been updating for awhile...

For those who've seen me recently, you probably know what's been going on with the sad modem of mine. Anyway, I hope this is the last time I would even have to bring it back to the shop again. Isn't there a rule on how much warranty can cover? Hahah...

Life's been a lot of going out, spending money, and spending more money recently. Oh, and not to forget, meeting up with friends unseen for a long time more often than usual. But hey, I'm not complaining about the latter. :D

Need to keep my mind busy and off a lot of things I don't want to be thinking about. 

Darn, I need to stop eating. XD

Study!!!

1 down and 1 to go!

Why did I choose Finance???
>.<

Deriving Inspiration

A thought occurred to me as I was in the shower today. Going through the usual routine of urm… cleaning myself (as that is what one does in the shower), I let my thoughts wander off on a journey of its own. Boarding a train from the station “Finance-is-a-Bane”, off into the lush and endless lands of “Wherever-as-long-as-it-is-not-Connected-to-my-Studies”, my thoughts flew… And then suddenly, it came to a screeching halt, as *poof*, this thought popped into my head:

“Hey… aren’t all these thoughts ‘blog-able ideas’? Why do I only seem to get inspirations like these in the most inconvenient of times???”

Thinking back a little, I found this to be very much true. The only times when I seem to be able to get good ideas are when:

1. I’m in the shower
2. I’m in my bed, right about to fall asleep
3. I’m brushing my teeth
4. I’m procrastinating during study time

And, as you can see from the above situations, they are very much inconvenient times for me.

Well, I guess I could pretty much still blog about those ideas right after I get out of the shower or when it is convenient for me. But the problem is, once I sit down in front of the computer screen and ready my fingers on the keyboard… *Zzzt!* My mind immediately goes blank. Then, I’m left staring at the computer screen for hours with absolutely 0 activity going on in my brain. (Thus, the not so well flowing thoughts and rants that ends up on the blog)

It’s really weird how my brain comes to a complete stand still when I try to write using a keyboard, as opposed to picking up a pen and penning my thoughts down. With that magical instrument in my hand, my thoughts flow easily and freely like a river naturally would. The words just come and come and sometimes, I even find it difficult to keep up my writing speed with those thoughts.

I don’t know… Maybe I’m just old-fashioned lar. And I guess in this I’ll always be. Just so you know, I hate the concept of e-books, I don’t believe in the conversion of books and stories from paper entirely into digital formats. I would even prefer to carry around a heavy, hard-backed book than a small, palm-sized reading device. Screw convenience. Lol.

Anyway, here I am, taking a short break from my notes and enjoying unlimited pots of green tea as I mull over the possible ways I could capture my thoughts as they come and put them down as I’ve always intended to in the first place. I’ve… *Ooops, spilled green tea on my notes… #@$%^&(%^)+!*

I’ve come up with a list as follows…

Suggested ways of getting down ideas when they form during inconvenient times:

1. Attach a notepad and pen next to the shower.
Afterthought: “Hmm… won’t work. I’d be dripping wet and the paper would have to be waterproof, lest I end up with only pulp to read after my shower. Lol. Besides, my parents and brother will think that I’m crazy.

2. Learn to write with my left hand while I brush my teeth with my right. Or, learn to brush my teeth with my left hand as I write with my right.
Afterthought: “Don’t think this will work either. I’d end up taking hours just to brush my teeth as I pen down an essay, or worse yet, end up brushing my nose or my chin since my mind would be completely focused on writing. And as much as a multi-tasker I am, writing and brushing my teeth is not something I can do.”

3. Write my thoughts down on paper first, and transfer them to the computer later.
Afterthought: “It would work… but meh, bad idea. That would mean doing two times the work. I don’t have THAT much time to spare :p”

4. Other non-feasible ideas:
- Learn how to sleep and write.
- Create a machine that would automatically convert thoughts in my mind to words on the computer.
- Incessant head-banging onto the keyboard (in hopes of directly transferring my ideas onto the computer-- of which I am quite inclined to try out actually). XD

I doubt any of the above would actually work. =.=
Or maybe… Maybe I just need more inspiration?

I created my blog with the sole purpose of sharing random thoughts and opinions on matters I deem people would find interesting. Somehow, along the way, I seemed to have lost my main objective and gave in to the endless rants and emotional outbursts instead. (Oklah, have to admit that my posts aren’t that emo :p)

Is my blog in need of a complete revamp then? Away with all the old junk and start afresh?

Even if it is, let me just tell you that’s unlikely. XD
I’m too lazy to even get up from my chair now, much less do anything else. Haha!

Ah well… end of procrastination. It’s back to the notes, back to the notes~

Y'know...

Sometimes you just don't get credit for trying.

Tomorrow

Tomorrow...

Is when the serious studying starts.

Tomorrow...

Is when the blogging frequency decreases drastically.

Tomorrow...

Is when I lock myself away from all possible entertainment.

Tomorrow...

Is when I stop gorging on sweet treats.

Tomorrow...

Is when I start to quarantine myslef at home.

Tomorrow...

Is only 5 minutes away.

Today I...

...satiated my craving.

When was the last time...?

When was the last time I had my favorite Japanese dish?

When was the last time I smiled at a stranger on the road?

When was the las time I looked up into the dark sky and enjoyed the beautiful view of stars?

When was the last time I took in the scent of a rose?

When was the last time I called a friend just to say 'Hi!' and ask them how they were doing?

When was the last time I called a friend just to tell them I missed them?

When was the last time I treated someone to something just because I felt like it?

When was the last time I told a friend he/she looked good even though he/she looked the same as always, because I sincerely meant it?

When was the last time I called him just to say 'I love you!'?

When was the last time I gave my parents a hug?

When was the last time I enjoyed a day out with friends and just laughed our worries away?

When was the last time I devoted more time to God?

When was the last time I truly felt happy?

When was the last time I let someone win?

When was the last time I did something to make someone feel happy?

When was the last time I stopped rushing through life and slowed down to appreciate it?

When was the last time I felt thankful for all that I have?

Life is short.

You live life only once.

As good or as bad life can be at times...

Don't take things for granted.

J

Hmm..

Somebody said today...

"You truly love someone if you start crying (tears of joy or happiness, whichever one it may be) when you utter the words 'I love you'..."

I couldn't help laughing when I heard that.

But yet I find it so true.

That doesn't mean you don't truly love someone if you don't cry whilst saying that, of course. ;)

Raw emotions. So inexplicable.

Memories

Life is all about making memories.

Whether we actually remember them, or we forget them, we never stop.

We never can stop, really.

Memory after memory, piled atop one another, stacked as high as our minds would allow it to be stacked...

New experiences, new memories... always.

It may be the same places;

It may be with the same people;

But yet each memory is different, distinct,

Unique as its own.

It can never replace an older memory, no matter how much we choose to fool ourselves sometimes,

And it can never be replaced itself.

Good memories, bad memories...

Happy ones, sad ones...

Unforgettable ones and ones that we want so much to forget sometimes;

They never do go away...

Memories, they shape our life.

Memories, so hard to capture.

Memories, so meaningful, or once was at least.

Memories, so painful, or so we hope to remember it as.

Memories, something we cannot really do without, no matter how much we may beg to differ sometimes.

Memories, I can't do without.

Memories, very much a part of me.

Kingdom Memories

Kingdom Memories - SoundTeMP
(Soundtrack from Ragnarok Online)

Listening to this song always makes me feel like I’ve been transported back into medieval times…...

***

A castle.

The first meeting. In the gardens.

The lady, admiring the roses. A gentleman, dressed in white. He, soft, golden brown hair, piercing green eyes. She, golden curls, bright blue eyes. He walks towards her. She looks up, wary. Introduces himself. He smiles, hands her a red rose. She takes it, gently. His hand brushes hers. She flushes. Courteously takes her gloved hand and plants a gentle kiss there.


Fast forward.
Night. Majestic hall, beautiful lights. Men, in their best coats. Ladies, in their dresses, jewelry on their ears, neck, glimmering. Food. Feasting. Light. Sounds. Music. Laughter. Dancing.

He walks up to her. Bows.

“May I have this dance, my lady?”

She smiles, takes his hand. They stride onto the dance floor. She curtsies, he bows. A hand on his shoulder. A hand on her waist. Moving fluidly across the floor. Steps. Rhythm. Her perfume. His warmth. In his arms. Protected. Staring into each other’s eyes.

In love.


Fast forward.
War. Chaos. Shouting. Screaming. Dying.

“Where is he?”
“Where is he!?”

Running, running, running.
Searching, looking.
Tears.
Grief.
Insanity.

A princess. Left alone in a city of ruin.
Running. Dark and deserted halls.
Weeping. In search of her lost love.

***

I really miss RO~

Fate?

*Crosses fingers and prays that I get lucky for once*

Shell

I think I am very much like a tortoise.

No, it’s not that I look like one.
No, it’s not that people say I look like one.
I’m just kinda like one.

Let me explain…

A tortoise has a hard shell on its back, which functions as its home, and is its protection from danger.
As for me, I think I very much have that shell too. No, not a physical one, but instead, my shell is very much my quiet, shy and steely exterior.

It’s very much my home as it is my comfort zone, something I easily fall back into whenever I need a little assurance. And it is also very much my protection as it serves as an effective wall and barrier, keeping danger away and providing me a place to hide myself behind whenever I feel like running away.

However, as protected I am by my shell, I’m also very much vulnerable like a tortoise when it is turned onto its back. Soft plastron (underside of shell) exposed and unable to get back on its feet, oftentimes, I do feel like that. Despite having a strong shell to protect me from most things, once someone tips me over onto my shell, and leave me exposed like the poor tortoise would be once it’s tipped over, I become extremely vulnerable and defenseless to everything else.

My “strong shell” works in two ways as well. As much as it serves as a strong protective barrier from danger, it can also be an obstruction in my path, a wall that keeps me away from everything else out there. It keeps the bad things out, but it also keeps the good and sometimes important things from coming in. If I’m lucky, I might be able to get that little boost I need to look over the wall to the other side. But most of the time, I’m totally oblivious to everything happening on the other side of that wall. And that has, many times before, left me disappointed at myself time and time again.
As much as I think that I need that shell of mine, I also think that I am capable of doing well without it as well.

Sometimes I just hate that shell so much.
Somebody, please break my shell.

No Updates

Hello readers!

Sorry for the lack of updates. I think all people seem to be seeing when they visit this blog are rants, rants, rants and more rants.

And frankly I think my readership doesn't even hit 5 in a day! Haha
Sounds so sad... >.<

Anyway, hopefully the problem with my internet at home can be fixed soon and hopefully then you'll be getting more updates from this girl. Not like she has anything interesting to blog about anyway. And not like anybody's interested to read what she has to say. Not like she has much to say at all... (what with my quiet nature and everything XD)

May's coming...

I'm gonna need a job soon *sigh* =.=

Rant

Now I think it's just not worth it. =.=
Haiz...

*End of rant. Will not comment.*
Oo.. it rhymes XD

Complete!

W-O-N-D-E-R-F-U-L

2 more weeks till Easter!

My arm and knees hurt... 

Lol.

愚か者

あたしは本当に馬鹿だ。

いつも使いものにならない。

大人になってよ！

Thoughts

I've been feeling a little out-of-sorts over the last few days... 

And well, frankly, I felt I haven't really been myself at all. Or maybe I was just being part of the "me" which I thought disappeared all those years ago.

Well, whatever it was, I didn't like it at all.

Most of you probably wouldn't know this, but I'm very much a worry-wart. The littlest of things are enough to get me all worked-up most of the time. I tend to dwell too much on things at times, things which, to the normal person, is probably nothing big at all. But then again, with this "worrying-nature" of mine, I start getting thoughts which just blows up the whole issue, and Ta-da! In comes the fears and stress, hand-in-hand, which subsequently resides in my head for a long, long time, without my consent of course.

I guess without my optimistic nature to complement this problem, I'd very much be in a nut-house by now. That's probably putting it a little too far, but well, let's just say I'm really glad that I taught myself to look at the positive side of things, as often as I can of course.

And when all else fails - When that optimistic nature of mine goes into hibernation when I need it the most; when no amount of words or comfort are enough to soothe me; when no amount of sleep or food is enough to make me feel better; when no amount of work is enough to keep me busy and take my mind of that issue I'm worrying about, I've learned how to turn to Him. And more often than not, I always wonder, shouldn't I just go to Him in the first place?

Somehow, doing that takes a lot of remembering for me. I know that shouldn't be the case, but I guess that's because I'm still not really used to doing that yet. Regardless, I've always been able to find that right passage in His word to put my mind at ease. And through prayer, I would always find calm and peace which I previously thought was eluding me. For all this, and for everything else, I thank the Lord for calling me back to Him.

"Peace I leave with you; my peace I give you. I do not give to you as the world gives. Do not let your hearts be troubled and do not be afraid."

John 14:24

Actually, I'm not the kind to go around quoting and remembering bible verses. My memory's just not good enough to do that. Heck, sometimes I can't even remember what I said over the phone.

And seriously, I have no idea where this post of mine is headed. I can't really remember the reason why I started writing this in the first place.

***

Anyway, on another note...

If you ever feel down and in need of some positive support, I might be the right person for you to go to. Not that I can give you good advice or anything, but who knows? With my optimistic nature I can probably give you some OTC (over-the-counter *too...much...finance...*), tailor-made positive thoughts to brighten up your day! (No guarantees though)

And even if it doesn't work, or if my replies are too positive for you, maybe they might be just enough to get you thinking, that the world isn't such a horrible place after all.

Well, at least I hope it will... Hahah!

***

Oh right! Now I remember what my initial thoughts were starting this post...

I was searching for some peace.. (as corny as it sounds...) 

And I guess I've found it for now ^^

I really need more sleep =.=

Cravings...

I suddenly have this weird craving for Apple Crumble... with Vanilla Ice-cream on top!

>.<

Ahhh... Me want apple crumble now!!!!!

Tiga Hari

Just 3 more days...

Friday Friday Friday Friday Friday Friday

And I know I'm not the only one looking forward to the coming of Friday! XD

Friday the 13th

Ooo... It's Friday the 13th today!

Not that I'm superstitious or anything... 

It's just that... It's only March, and it already is the 2nd Friday the 13th this year! 

And what's even more interesting... is that it's been Friday the 13th for 2 consecutive months in a row! (February also had a Friday the 13th)

Just a few interesting facts about Friday the 13th and the number 13~

1. Fear of Friday the 13th is called paraskavedekatriaphobia as well as friggatriskaidekaphobia. 

Triskaidekaphobia is fear of the number 13. 

(That's one heck of a freaking long phobia name... Try pronouncing it fast... it's a good tongue twister XD) 

2. Many hospitals have no room 13, while some tall buildings skip the 13th floor and some airline terminals omit Gate 13.

(Guess that's normal here as well. People usually have their house numbers altered to 11A instead of sticking with 13)

3. President Franklin D. Roosevelt would not travel on the 13th day of any month and would never host 13 guests at a meal. Napoleon and President Herbert Hoover were also triskaidekaphobic, with an abnormal fear of the number 13.

(Wonder if our Prime Ministers have these kind of superstitions. Lol)

4. Mark Twain once was the 13th guest at a dinner party. A friend warned him not to go. "It was bad luck," Twain later told the friend, "They only had food for 12." 

Superstitious diners in Paris can hire a quatorzieme, or professional 14th guest.

(Wah, I wouldn't mind working as a quatorzieme... sounds like a good thing to be getting paid to get to eat! XD)

Mark Twain is an author by the way, his better known books are "The Adventures of Tom Sawyer" and "Adventures of Huckleberry Finn"

5. The number 13 suffers from its position after 12, according to numerologists who consider the latter to be a complete number - 12 months in a year, 12 signs of the zodiac, 12 gods of Olympus, 12 labours of Hercules, 12 tribes of Israel, 12 apostles of Jesus, 12 days of Christmas and 12 eggs in a dozen.

(Ooo... interesting XD)

6. Friday 13th is unlucky for some. The risk of hospital admission as a result of a transport accident may be increased as much as 52%. Staying at home is recommended.

(Probably just coincidence? o.O I think people just freak easier on Friday the 13th because of the superstition...)

So... 

Anybody come across any form of bad luck today? Or a black cat perhaps? XD

References:

http://news.yahoo.com/s/livescience/20090312/sc_livescience/5factsaboutfridaythe13th

http://www.livescience.com/culture/090312-friday-the-13th.html

http://urbanlegends.about.com/cs/historical/a/friday_the_13th.htm

Brrr

Me is cold.
And me is hungry.

Blogging from the library in college now.
Not that I have much to say...

It's just that, every freaking place in this whole college block seems to have such powerful air-conditioners that one can die of hypothermia if care is not taken to have your shirt sleeve extended beyond your elbow.

I've been in and out of cold classrooms all week long now, and I'm getting quite sick of it actually. (I kinda mean it literally too... I am getting sick =.=)

I know, I know... I don't deny that I'd rather be in a class with air-cond rather than sitting in one which may only have fans or nothing at all, and that I'm extremely privileged compared to some others, but when you're in a classroom which is so cold your fingers turn blue and numb and you can barely even write, that's a clear sign that maybe it's a bit too much.

I wonder how many thousands the electricity bill of the college runs into every month...

Hmm... but then again, who am I to be complaining about petty stuff like that yea?

I should bring a pair of gloves to class the next time round~

"Brr...

I'm cold...

I need a sweater..."

Long weekend

I had a long, long, loooooooong weekend.

It was tiring, but it wasn't all that bad as well... Besides having to wake up early consecutively for 5 days in a row and getting less than 7 hours sleep each night, I guess I did enjoy my weekend. =D

Had a little extra fun on Sunday morning. There was no Sunday School for that week, (and next week too... finally a break from all those kids lol) so after having breakfast I wandered into the youth room, to find that the Grand Prix Racing Track set up by Jon (I think?) for the Sunday School Carnival the day before was still there.

The very elaborate race track. 

Lol.. I loved the score at the football stadium which read Man Utd 7, Inter Milan 0 :p

So anyway, I had a go at it... and felt so much like a small kid again. =D (I miss my old remote control car... it's spoilt though)

And then Jon brought out his black Estima... and well, let's just say it was so big and powerful that the only thing it could do was move in a straight line and cause numerous accidents to the poor small cars we were using.

Proud to say I finished 2 laps. After a very long time that is...XD And another half going the other way... Aiya actually I just suck at it la.. hahah

Justin's car (white) bullying Daphne's (yellow)

***

On another note... Someone called me "Aunty" yesterday =.=

Do I look THAT old?!

Gosh... I think I really am getting old =.=

I need a pair of red heels XD

You know...

They say:

"Ignorance is bliss"

and

"The truth hurts"

I think it's so true...

But somehow or rather, I'd rather know the painful truth, than to be so blissfully ignorant of it.

Say Hello

Say Hello - Rosie Thomas feat. Sufjan Stevens

W-

If I find him

If I just follow

Would he hold me and never let me go

Would he let me borrow his wool winter coat

I don't know, I don't know

M-

If I see her standing there alone

At the train station, three stops from her home

I have half a mind to say what I'm thinking anyway

But I don't know, I don't know

B-

There's an airplane in the sky

With a banner right behind

"Loneliness is just a crime,

look each other in the eye

And say hello-o-o-o-o

and say hello-o-o-o-o"

(spoken)

M- Hey there. How you doing?

W- Hi, my name is Mary.

M- Hi.

*********

Heard this from a friend's blog...

Things only happen if you're brave enough to take the first step...

So what are you waiting for?

Make the first move!

Don't Judge a Book by its cover

Awesome lecturers tell awesome jokes.

Below is just a list of suggestions offered by one of my lecturers on how to tell if the girl you're going out with is really as sweet and gentle as you think she is, or really a monster within, just waiting for the right moment to be unleashed.

Just thought it would be fun if I shared this. Even though I'm a girl myself. Lol. XD 

Ways to find out if your girlfriend is actually violent in nature:

1. Observe the way she treats her brothers. If he/they submit to her as if she's Ruler of the World and has bruises on his/their bodies to show you, then you might be in for some trouble in the future.

2. Take her out for dinner in Klang (or any other good seafood restaurant) and order crabs. Observe the way she uses the hammer to get at the crab meat. Take serious note if she starts hammering away like a blacksmith would on metal. 

3. Don't forget to order prawns as well, just in case she passes the "Hammering Crabs" test. Observe the way she pulls off the prawn head. As much as she may use the hammer gently on the crabs, you know you're gonna be in big trouble if she unceremoniously rips off the prawn's head like how giant monsters rips off its victims' heads in gory movies.

4. Bring her out for dinner at a Japanese buffet restaurant. Jogoya/Equatorial would be a good place to go. Observe her raw meat to cooked meat intake ratio for that evening. If the ratio is at 80:20 or higher, you may wanna be a little more cautious. If you see her actually enjoying the raw meat with blood running down her chin, it's a clear sign that you should be running.

I hope I'm none of the above... Hahahahhaha!

Just another day~

Another day out = Another day of needless spending...

Aaaaaahhh.. I gotta stop >.<

I know I should be tying strings on my purse now, but I just can't help it... 

It was too pwetty T__T

Ah well, don't deny I'm happy though...

Happy owns everything else. :p

Oh, and if you can, do watch Slumdog Millionaire.

It's worth every single oscar nomination it got =D

Hungry hungry~

Happy

I'm happy!!! =D

Edit: Scratch that, I'm more relieved than happy actually... (and after getting news from fellow friends I'm not so happy anymore >.<)

Anyway...

Grats to all those who made it through their papers as well! =D

Finally! I can officially say "Bye-bye and good riddance" to my core papers... Lol

Oh, and I'm looking forward to you treating us dinner Wui Li :p

PS - Thanks so much for coming over and keeping me company, dear :)

FYI...

Just something I've learned rather "painfully" you could say...

If you want something...

JUST FREAKING ASK FOR IT!!!

XD

Girls, take note... Lol

Menjual Ikan

Saya menjual ikan.

Saya banyak menjual ikan.

Saya benci diri sendiri menjual ikan,

tetapi saya sering menjual ikan.

Saya tidak suka menjual ikan,

tetapi ada kalanya saya tiada pilihan.

Saya sangat susah hati kerana tiada orang hendak membeli ikan.

Ikan-ikan pun susah hati kerana saya menjual ikan.

Ish...

It's been four nights in a row...

I go to bed really tired, exhausted and full of fatigue, but my mind just refuses to shut down and let me sleep.

I don't know what else to do anymore >.<

Bye Bye January~

I just had a full 4 hours and 30 minutes of awesome tennis. 

Awesome, awesome tennis.

(My neighbours must've been cursing my whole family as I think my mum, bro and I were quite unrestrained in screaming our frustrations... Hahaha)

It's been quite a while since we tennis fans got such good action between the two top tennis players in the world though (a.k.a World No.1 Rafael Nadal and No.2 Roger Federer)

A pity that Federer didn't win this slam though. But I gotta admit that Nadal played superb tennis today, despite that crazy 5 hour and 5 setter semi-final he played on Friday.

On another note...

CNY hols are over T_T

Class hours are gonna increase T___T

And results will be out in exactly 2 weeks time... T_______T

*Sigh*

Bye bye January~

Happy "Niu" Year

Yes, yes... I know that title is so overused... But I don't care :p

Happy Chinese New Year everyone!

This year, it's in with the "moooooo" (ox) and out with the rat. =D

Looks like the financial crisis has hit my friends hard... Didn't receive any New Year cards this year... T_T (It all came in E-card form lol) 

But anyway, it's the thought that counts right? ;) 

So thanks for those E-cards people! (You know who you are ^_^)

Just got back from Ipoh (the paradise of food.. but sadly not so during CNY =.=)

Can't say I had all the fun in the world, but it sure was a little more special this year... XD

Anyway, wishing all of you out there...

A steady, prosperous and happy Chinese New Year!

Starry Starry Night

There I was, sitting by the window, my favourite spot in any vehicle, during the journey home from Singapore on Monday night, minding my own business, fumbling with my phone's playlist...

And then I looked out the window...

"Wow..."

(What I saw was something like the picture itself... well... almost...)

Well, okay, I'm no jakun, and it's not like I've never seen stars before. 

But being a city kid -  born, raised and having grown up in the city, where lights are plentiful and never seem to go off even until the sun comes up, I've never really had many chances to actually sit back and enjoy the beauty of the night skies.

Being surrounded by all kinds of lights - streetlamps, house lights, billboard spotlights, huge blinking neon signs - all night, well suffice to say, all those lights would surely dim out whatever remaining lights you'd gleam from the sky.

And the few times I've actually had the privilege to enjoy star studded skies like these were either:

i) When blackouts occured and the whole neighbourhood is as dark as the sky itself (albeit being constantly disturbed by mosquitoes as well), or

ii) Enjoying the night sky whilst on the beach where there are minimal lights (I think I can count the number of times I did this with the fingers of only one hand)

So, being able to see something like this from inside a moving bus on the dark, dark highway was really something for me.

Okay, I have to admit though, I'm the kind of person who would usually just fall asleep in the bus/car/whatever vehicle it is I'm sitting in and be oblivious to everything else going on outside. (Although there was this one trip, where I recall waking up and looking out the window, only to see a really tall pole or tower of some sort and it was on fire... and I can assure you I wasn't dreaming... but that's a story for another day... and anyway why am I even talking about it... it's just so irrelevant =.=) And besides that, just like any other human being, I'm always taking things for granted. So appreciating the awesome things all around us isn't something I'd do until something hits me hard in the face and makes me go "Oh! Why didn't I notice this before?"... Or something along those lines...

I'm just glad I actually looked out the window that Monday night. The stars were just so beautiful. And staring out at the night sky that night, made me reminisce about my fascination with astronomy I've always had as a young girl, which actually, wasn't all that long ago. Wouldn't you agree that the universe is such a fascinating and interesting piece of creation? I certainly do. I've always thought the night skies to be intriguing and mysterious, and most of all, full of endless possibilities.

Ah, and wouldn't it be great to have a star named after you...

Guess I better stop here before I get lost in my little girl fantasies again... Heheh...

Star light, star bright,

The first star I see tonight,

I wish I may, I wish I might,

Have the wish I wish tonight...