Thoughts

I've been feeling a little out-of-sorts over the last few days... 

And well, frankly, I felt I haven't really been myself at all. Or maybe I was just being part of the "me" which I thought disappeared all those years ago.

Well, whatever it was, I didn't like it at all.

Most of you probably wouldn't know this, but I'm very much a worry-wart. The littlest of things are enough to get me all worked-up most of the time. I tend to dwell too much on things at times, things which, to the normal person, is probably nothing big at all. But then again, with this "worrying-nature" of mine, I start getting thoughts which just blows up the whole issue, and Ta-da! In comes the fears and stress, hand-in-hand, which subsequently resides in my head for a long, long time, without my consent of course.

I guess without my optimistic nature to complement this problem, I'd very much be in a nut-house by now. That's probably putting it a little too far, but well, let's just say I'm really glad that I taught myself to look at the positive side of things, as often as I can of course.

And when all else fails - When that optimistic nature of mine goes into hibernation when I need it the most; when no amount of words or comfort are enough to soothe me; when no amount of sleep or food is enough to make me feel better; when no amount of work is enough to keep me busy and take my mind of that issue I'm worrying about, I've learned how to turn to Him. And more often than not, I always wonder, shouldn't I just go to Him in the first place?

Somehow, doing that takes a lot of remembering for me. I know that shouldn't be the case, but I guess that's because I'm still not really used to doing that yet. Regardless, I've always been able to find that right passage in His word to put my mind at ease. And through prayer, I would always find calm and peace which I previously thought was eluding me. For all this, and for everything else, I thank the Lord for calling me back to Him.

"Peace I leave with you; my peace I give you. I do not give to you as the world gives. Do not let your hearts be troubled and do not be afraid."

John 14:24

Actually, I'm not the kind to go around quoting and remembering bible verses. My memory's just not good enough to do that. Heck, sometimes I can't even remember what I said over the phone.

And seriously, I have no idea where this post of mine is headed. I can't really remember the reason why I started writing this in the first place.

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Anyway, on another note...

If you ever feel down and in need of some positive support, I might be the right person for you to go to. Not that I can give you good advice or anything, but who knows? With my optimistic nature I can probably give you some OTC (over-the-counter *too...much...finance...*), tailor-made positive thoughts to brighten up your day! (No guarantees though)

And even if it doesn't work, or if my replies are too positive for you, maybe they might be just enough to get you thinking, that the world isn't such a horrible place after all.

Well, at least I hope it will... Hahah!

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Oh right! Now I remember what my initial thoughts were starting this post...

I was searching for some peace.. (as corny as it sounds...) 

And I guess I've found it for now ^^

I really need more sleep =.=