Kingdom Memories

Kingdom Memories - SoundTeMP
(Soundtrack from Ragnarok Online)

Listening to this song always makes me feel like I’ve been transported back into medieval times…...

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A castle.

The first meeting. In the gardens.

The lady, admiring the roses. A gentleman, dressed in white. He, soft, golden brown hair, piercing green eyes. She, golden curls, bright blue eyes. He walks towards her. She looks up, wary. Introduces himself. He smiles, hands her a red rose. She takes it, gently. His hand brushes hers. She flushes. Courteously takes her gloved hand and plants a gentle kiss there.


Fast forward.
Night. Majestic hall, beautiful lights. Men, in their best coats. Ladies, in their dresses, jewelry on their ears, neck, glimmering. Food. Feasting. Light. Sounds. Music. Laughter. Dancing.

He walks up to her. Bows.

“May I have this dance, my lady?”

She smiles, takes his hand. They stride onto the dance floor. She curtsies, he bows. A hand on his shoulder. A hand on her waist. Moving fluidly across the floor. Steps. Rhythm. Her perfume. His warmth. In his arms. Protected. Staring into each other’s eyes.

In love.


Fast forward.
War. Chaos. Shouting. Screaming. Dying.

“Where is he?”
“Where is he!?”

Running, running, running.
Searching, looking.
Tears.
Grief.
Insanity.

A princess. Left alone in a city of ruin.
Running. Dark and deserted halls.
Weeping. In search of her lost love.

***

I really miss RO~

Fate?

*Crosses fingers and prays that I get lucky for once*

Shell

I think I am very much like a tortoise.

No, it’s not that I look like one.
No, it’s not that people say I look like one.
I’m just kinda like one.

Let me explain…

A tortoise has a hard shell on its back, which functions as its home, and is its protection from danger.
As for me, I think I very much have that shell too. No, not a physical one, but instead, my shell is very much my quiet, shy and steely exterior.

It’s very much my home as it is my comfort zone, something I easily fall back into whenever I need a little assurance. And it is also very much my protection as it serves as an effective wall and barrier, keeping danger away and providing me a place to hide myself behind whenever I feel like running away.

However, as protected I am by my shell, I’m also very much vulnerable like a tortoise when it is turned onto its back. Soft plastron (underside of shell) exposed and unable to get back on its feet, oftentimes, I do feel like that. Despite having a strong shell to protect me from most things, once someone tips me over onto my shell, and leave me exposed like the poor tortoise would be once it’s tipped over, I become extremely vulnerable and defenseless to everything else.

My “strong shell” works in two ways as well. As much as it serves as a strong protective barrier from danger, it can also be an obstruction in my path, a wall that keeps me away from everything else out there. It keeps the bad things out, but it also keeps the good and sometimes important things from coming in. If I’m lucky, I might be able to get that little boost I need to look over the wall to the other side. But most of the time, I’m totally oblivious to everything happening on the other side of that wall. And that has, many times before, left me disappointed at myself time and time again.
As much as I think that I need that shell of mine, I also think that I am capable of doing well without it as well.

Sometimes I just hate that shell so much.
Somebody, please break my shell.

No Updates

Hello readers!

Sorry for the lack of updates. I think all people seem to be seeing when they visit this blog are rants, rants, rants and more rants.

And frankly I think my readership doesn't even hit 5 in a day! Haha
Sounds so sad... >.<

Anyway, hopefully the problem with my internet at home can be fixed soon and hopefully then you'll be getting more updates from this girl. Not like she has anything interesting to blog about anyway. And not like anybody's interested to read what she has to say. Not like she has much to say at all... (what with my quiet nature and everything XD)

May's coming...

I'm gonna need a job soon *sigh* =.=

Rant

Now I think it's just not worth it. =.=
Haiz...

*End of rant. Will not comment.*
Oo.. it rhymes XD